the thought of losing someone

I’ve been hit by some major events recently, and one similarity amongst them is the fact that I came close to losing some of my loved ones. Firstly, it was my dad who was hospitalised after undergoing a sudden major operation. It felt weird when I reach home late and he isn’t there to pick me up from the first floor, not having him ard to ask for advice on things..well basically, it was just empty not having him ard.  But thank God he is discharged and currently recuperating from home. Thank you all for your prayers and concern. Much appreciated. (: and thank you God, for keeping my dad safe, the rest of my family safe, and for sending the two angels abby and steph at the most amazing time. I think I have gain new insights after this experience; I realised how when it comes down to crunchtime, some things really don’t matter. it’s really the things that can’t be quantified that counts the most.

Secondly, it is when you think your friend is going to leave singapore in a couple of days and wants to meet up but you are so busy with your schedule and the thought of not being able to do smth about it makes you feel extremely guilty. yes, that was what happened to abby and steph. Abby: I am really sorry that I wasn’t able to send you off that night. I will explain to you offline but I know you will understand. Steph: thank God you’re only leaving on 3 OCT, not 3 SEPT. it freaked me out, really it did.

Apart from them, i had a blast over the summer. and i mean like, atomic bomb kind of blast. so many friendships made, so many things accomplished. looking back at the pics of myself taken during ocip philippines (out of ALL the pics ive taken over the summer), i think those were the times when i was truly and genuinely happy. Maybe that’s why I’m going back there again. Perhaps it is in hope of experiencing the whole journey over again, but i know what we shared as project touch 1 is smth unique and special to us which no one can ever take away or replace. As a leader it is only right to give my new group a chance to form another experience, unique to their own. And I pray that God will lead jeremy (co-leader) and i through this process, and provide us with the wisdom and patience to do a good job with it. 

I think I am beginning to appreciate and love SMU for what it is. Maybe it’s true; maybe all you need is time.

yeah, maybe all we need is time.